Do i have a mental illness? I really need help.?

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Do i have a mental illness? I really need help.?
im years old and my parents verbally abuse me. they constantly curse me out, put me down and threaten me to the point that im an emotional wreck.they always mock me and tell me im stupid when im smarter than both of them. my mom suffers from clinical depression and constantly takes it out on me as if its my fault. most of the time i bottle up my emotions until i get a chance to cry until i have no more tears left. recently ive tried to tame my emotions with poetry and it seems to work, a little. most of them are about death, scuicide and manslaughter. i laghed through Saw untill i couldnt any more. i really need help.

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The worst thing you can do is bottle up all youre emotions and keep them inside of you.brbrVerbal abuse is just as bad as physical abuse. It is shameful that youre parents choose to raise you this way, if what you say is true, and not choose to raise you with love and respect.brbrFirst of all, you are in school and you have counselors there that are trained to help any child that comes through their door and ask. Second, there are churches all around you and they are also there and willing to help and give you the strength you need to keep youre wits end through these rough growing up years. Third, you need to distance yourself from the abuse as much as you can. Fourth, try to contact another family member that can help, if there are any.brbrNext and most important, the fact that you stated you are smarter than them is in some sort of a big hint that it may not all be their fault. You are at a stage in youre life where youre emotions are out of control anyway. Puberty can cause emotions to come to surface that you find hard to explain and with any added unpleasantness they can seem far worse than they should.brbrBeing a parent these days is not a piece of cake. They are responsible for you and for youre well being. There may be more times than not that you think they are being totally unreasonable simply because they are being a parent instead of a friend. brbrSometimes as an adolescent you see everything that a parent tries to do as destructive to what you actually want them to let you do. Just some things to think about. If you can ask what you asked on here you are not beyond being a little rationale about the whole situation.brbrAgain, once you have mastered being an obedient child and you respect them for being youre parents and things are not better then seek the help I stated above. Everyone I listed is there to help and they are willing to help.brbrNobody, I repeat, nobody that answers on here can justify telling you that you are depressed. This site was not meant for diagnosing depression. Depression is a serious thing and should be considered just that.brbrSay a prayer every time you can and forgive the ones that you think wrong you and in return God will forgive you for what you have wronged. brbrSay a prayer anyway!